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She Credits A Guardian Angel With Her Survival | Impact of Murder

She Credits A Guardian Angel With Her Survival | Impact of Murder


I SAID TO HIM, YOU KNOW,
“TAKE MY PURSE.” BUT HE CONTINUED TO STAB ME. SHE UNFORTUNATELY DIDN’T MAKE IT
AND I DID. EVERYTHING ELSE JUST WENT — IT’S LIKE YOU KIND OF BLACK OUT
FOR A MINUTE. NOTHING ELSE IN THE WORLD
MATTERS OTHER THAN SAVING YOUR LIFE. ♪♪ I WAS A JUNIOR IN COLLEGE, AND I WAS GEARING UP TO BE
THE SOLO CAPTAIN OF MY FIELD HOCKEY TEAM. THEN A TERRIBLE CRIME
CHANGED MY LIFE FOREVER. ♪♪ ♪♪ I SAID TO HIM, YOU KNOW,
“TAKE MY PURSE. TAKE MY PHONE.” AND HE KIND OF STOPPED. AND THEN HE CONTINUED
TO STAB ME. WHEN I SAID “TAKE MY THINGS”
AND HE DIDN’T, THAT’S WHEN I KNEW
HE WAS TRYING TO KILL ME. I ACTUALLY NEVER FELT THE KNIFE
GOING INTO ME. I JUST SAW IT. ♪♪ I CRAWLED INTO MY APARTMENT
AND TO MY ROOMMATE’S DOOR. ♪♪ ♪♪ I BELIEVE THAT HE WAS IN
AN EVIL PLACE IN HIS MIND, AND THE ONLY WAY
HE COULD ESCAPE THE EVILNESS THAT WAS TAKING OVER HIM
WAS TO TAKE IT OUT ON SOMEONE. AND I SHARE THAT WITH AMY THAT WE WERE IN THE WRONG PLACE
AT THE WRONG TIME. AND SHE UNFORTUNATELY
DIDN’T MAKE IT, AND I DID. ♪♪ ♪♪ MY MOM ACTUALLY WAS THE ONE
WHO BROUGHT IT TO MY ATTENTION, WHAT AN IMPACT STATEMENT WAS AND
THAT I HAD A CHOICE TO GIVE ONE. I DON’T THINK I’M GONNA BE
ABLE TO READ IT. I’M GONNA LOOK AT IT. AND I THINK
THE MORE I THOUGHT ABOUT IT, THE MORE I THOUGHT, “IF I DON’T
DO THIS, I’M GONNA REGRET IT.” THIS IS SO HARD. I WANTED TO REALLY JUST
BE IN THE MOMENT AND SPEAK TO HOW I TRULY FELT
IN THAT MOMENT AND TO SPEAK FROM MY HEART. AND THAT’S WHAT I DID. I GOT TWO TATTOOS
AFTER THIS INCIDENT HAPPENED. ONE ON MY FOREARM
AROUND MY STAB WOUND, THE BIGGEST STAB WOUND
THAT I HAVE, THAT SAYS “STRENGTH”
AND AN INFINITY SIGN AND MY NANA’S NAME IN A HEART. I LOOK AT THIS EVERY MORNING
WHEN I WAKE UP. I CAN’T NOT LOOK AT IT. IT’S HERE ON MY ARM.
IT’S ALWAYS GONNA BE HERE. AND THIS REMINDS ME WHEN I LOOK
AT IT THAT I HAVE STRENGTH AND I’M STRONG AND I’M STRONGER
THAN MY ATTACKER, AND I WILL BE STRONGER THAN ANYONE THAT EVER TRIES
TO PUT ME DOWN, EVER. AND EVERYONE OUT THERE
CAN DO THAT TOO. I WANTED EVERYONE
TO ALSO KNOW THAT I WAS GOING TO DO
THE BEST I COULD TO CONTINUE ON WITH MY LIFE AND BE A POSITIVE PERSON
IN THE BEST WAY THAT I COULD BE. AMY IS GONNA BE WITH ME
FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE, AND I MADE NEW BONDS
WITH THE LORD FAMILY. WE’RE GONNA BE BONDED FOREVER. AND HE’S GONNA BE PUT AWAY
FOREVER. AND THAT’S ALL I HAVE. Man: THANK YOU. [ SCATTERED APPLAUSE ] ♪♪ ♪♪ OH, YEAH. SO, THIS IS A BOX THAT
CINDY LORD GAVE TO ME THE FIRST TIME I MET HER,
I BELIEVE. AND IT SAYS, “NO MATTER WHAT,
YOU’LL NEVER BE ALONE.” THIS IS SOMETHING THAT I KEEP
ON MY BUREAU. AND YEAH, IT’S A NECKLACE
OF AN ANGEL WING THAT SHE WAS WEARING
WHEN THEY FOUND HER. ♪♪ WHEN I FOUGHT BACK, YOU KNOW,
LIKE, SHE WAS THERE. SHE KNEW WHAT I HAD TO DO
FROM WHAT SHE WENT THROUGH. AND I FEEL AS THOUGH
SHE WAS MY ANGEL. AND IT’S JUST VERY IRONIC THAT
SHE WAS WEARING AN ANGEL WING AND THAT I GOT A TATTOO
OF AN ANGEL WING MONTHS BEFORE I KNEW THAT
IT WAS IMPORTANT IN HER LIFE. SHE’S THERE.
WE’RE LINKED TOGETHER, AND HOW EVERYTHING WENT DOWN
WOULDN’T HAVE HAPPENED IF THAT DIDN’T EXIST. THAT’S MY THOUGHT. ♪♪ AS I’VE GONE THROUGH
THE HEALING PROCESS OVER THE PAST FIVE YEARS, I REALLY WANTED TO DO SOMETHING WHERE I FELT LIKE
I WAS GIVING BACK. YOU KNOW, I HAD A LUNG
THAT WAS COLLAPSED AND I HAD TO LEARN TO, LIKE,
WALK AGAIN AND RUN. AND I’VE LEARNED THAT
IT’S ACTUALLY A STRENGTH TO BE VULNERABLE. AND I WAS REALLY
ABLE TO MANAGE THAT BY STARTING TO DO
MOTIVATIONAL SPEAKING. I SPOKE AT MY HIGH SCHOOL’S
GRADUATION, AND STUDENTS WOULD COME UP TO ME AND TELL ME HOW MUCH
THAT THEY APPRECIATED THAT. AND I SPOKE AT
A JUVENILE FACILITY TO KIDS WHO, YOU KNOW,
NEEDED HOPE AND NEEDED A PERSPECTIVE
THEY’RE NOT USED TO SEEING. FOR ME, IT’S VERY LIBERATING
TO TALK ABOUT. I FEEL VERY PROUD OF WHAT I DID
AND HOW I OVERCAME IT, AND SO I FEEL AN OBLIGATION
TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE WHO MAY HAVE GONE THROUGH
TRAUMATIC EVENTS DEAL WITH THOSE EMOTIONS. ♪♪ SKIING, FOR ME, IS SOMETHING
THAT’S VERY FREEING. IT REMINDS ME
OF HOW STRONG I AM, BEING A SURVIVOR, AND HOW MUCH I CAN LET GO. AND I FEEL SO MUCH GRATITUDE FOR THE WIND AND THE CRISP AIR
BLOWING ON MY FACE, AND I FEEL SPECIAL. I FEEL SPECIAL TO BE ABLE
TO HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO BE SITTING HERE SPEAKING OUT
AND SHARING MY STORY.

9 thoughts on “She Credits A Guardian Angel With Her Survival | Impact of Murder”

  1. She is so beautiful, why someone wants to hurt someone like her? Why there is people in the world who wants to destroy people like it was an object, I wish this kind of people were never born…

  2. I'm so happy that she survived and I do believe in protectors/angels. I believe that Amy's spirit was there to help her, and give her strength to fight him and survive. The only thing that would have given this story a better ending is if that psychopath that stabbed her would have been given the death penalty.

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