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The Truth About “Success” πŸ†

The Truth About “Success” πŸ†


Hey guys! Welcome back to Lavendaire. Today I just wanted to sit down
and chat with you guys, get real. Let’s talk about success. First off: Thank you so much for 800,000 subscribers. That is amazing, and honestly, I’m able to live my dream because of you guys who watch. Thank you, thank you so much. And at this point, I just want to share
how it feels to live the life that I’m living, because I honestly do feel like I’m living my dream life. I’m on the right path, and I’ve gotten to a point where I’ve achieved most of the things that I’ve wanted to do in this life, and I think maybe because
I’ve set my goals too low or something, I feel like I can chill… I don’t know, it’s a weird part of being grateful for everything that you have accomplished
and not needing more. You know what I mean? Not needing to do more. But the downside of not needing more is,
I feel a little lazy. I feel like I could just stop everything and I’ll be happy with my life where I am right now. It’s a little strange, but let’s start with this: Success should be defined on your terms. You get to decide what success means to you
because it is your life. You get to live it, you get to enjoy it. Nobody should be able to tell you or force you to do something that you don’t want to do. I think, growing up, a lot of us tend to take
the definition of success from our parents or our teachers or our peers. We think that we want certain things,
when in reality, it’s not what we want. It’s what other people want for us. A big part of life is figuring out
what success means to you. Personally, success to me is: Creating a life that is fulfilling and abundant, a life where I can do something creatively fulfilling, a life where I am genuinely helping people and putting positive, good vibes out into the world, helping others in some way, but also reaping financial benefits,
having financial freedom, being about to do whatever I want,
travel wherever I want, and wake up whenever I want, because I love sleep. I need that freedom to sleep and
wake up whenever I want. Back then, I used to look at YouTube channels with hundreds of thousands of subscribers,
millions of subscribers, and be like, “Oh my gosh, that is the dream,” and I just wasn’t ever sure that I could ever get there, but that was my goal, to be the YouTuber
with a business and everything. And I’m really lucky that my path has
led me to where I am now because I do feel like I have those things
that I wanted back then. And I think what I want to say is: The more you grow and the more success you achieve, at a certain point, the numbers stop mattering. I think your first hundred,
your first thousand subscribers, or your first paycheck or whatever,
those things are really meaningful to you. And you’re like, “Oh my god, I can pay for myself. I’m making money. I’m growing.” All that stuff’s amazing. And I realize that back then, I was in survival mode, wondering “Can I actually make it? Can I do this? Will this be sustainable? Can I succeed as a business?” After you get to that point,
whatever number it may be for you – I know it’s different for everybody – you realize that anything additional,
anything more than that is just a perk. And it’s less of an “Oh my god,”
and more of like, “Okay, cool.” And I don’t mean to sound ungrateful or anything, but the numbers really don’t matter. When I hit 500,000, 600,000, 700,000, 800,000,
it all felt the same. And it’s not the number that matters,
it’s really how grateful, how happy are you living the life
that you’re living right now. There was something that Drake said
at the Grammys recently. It was a bit deal because the award show cut him off. “Look, the point is:
You’ve already won if have people who are singing your songs word-for-word, if you’re a hero in your hometown. Look, if there’s people who have regular jobs, who are coming out in the rain, in the snow, spending their hard-earned money to buy tickets
to come to your shows, you don’t need this right here, I promise you. You already won.” Basically, he was saying that those awards don’t matter as much as you think they matter. It’s cool for a few minutes or a day or something. But after you get that award, you’re like, “…Okay.” It was just temporary, and what really matters are whether you’re doing something valuable and
meaningful in the world. If you’re a performer,
you have people coming to your shows, people watching you, people listening
to what you have to say, that is more meaningful. And as long as you’re able to make a living
off of something that you love to do and you’re having fun, you’re living a good life,
then you’re set. There really isn’t a necessity and you shouldn’t focus on those awards or attaining a certain number or anything like that. You realize when you get there, that you feel the same and it doesn’t change who you are, and what matters more is just the daily work
that you put in, how you feel on the daily. What matters is really the stuff that people
can’t measure from the outside. Yes, it is nice to get external validation. It is nice to get people to recognize your achievements. And it is nice to be able to show off a little
bit to your peers or whatever. But really, that is all just boosting your ego, and it really doesn’t matter in the end. What really matters is your internal validation, whether you love yourself,
whether you think that you’re great, and whether you genuinely love your life. To be honest, I’ve kind of had this internal
conflict in myself for a while because I feel like I love where I am and I feel like I’ve achieved everything that I want. Currently in my life, I am happy with the
amount of money that I make. I’m happy with the work that I’m doing, and there really doesn’t need to be more. I don’t feel like I need more recognition
or more outward success. I don’t feel like I need it, and some days, I just feel like it makes me happier to live my regular life without posting and creating so much on social media because social media can sometimes
make you go crazy, as you all know – not crazy, but it’s just a cycle that never ends. And when I’ve tried those social media detoxes,
it’s so nice. I don’t know if you guys notice,
but I post less on Instagram. And the conflict is: It makes me happy to not post, and it makes me happy to have more free time and not have to force myself to make videos
or post things on Instagram. It makes me happy to not post, and yet my job is to post stuff consistently because if you’re on social media,
you need to be consistent. People need to see you. You need to share your message
and your voice constantly. And so that’s my internal battle because if I were to keep building,
growing the business – it is ‘smart’ to keep posting consistently
and doing all of that, but I’m asking myself: What am I doing it for? Do I really need more followers on Instagram? I don’t think it really matters as much. I might sound like I’m setting my goals too low, but I think a lot of the life that I want to live
is about finding the balance. It’s not about really striving to be the best, because if you’re purely striving for that
outward, external success, there’s no meaning in that. And I think I’m always in tune with my intuition and I want to listen to my intuition
and go towards what brings me joy, go towards what’s more meaningful to me in life. And sometimes that might mean,
“Okay, I won’t grow my business as fast.” Or maybe I’ll disappear for a little bit
because it makes me happy. Or maybe sometimes I’ll get really inspired
and I’ll create a bunch at a time. It is just very inconsistent. Basically what I’m trying to say is: My heart is in conflict with my business-practical brain, and that’s where it’s at right now. But just letting you guys know that I’m happy
with where I am. I feel like I’ve reached my definition of success,
and the rest, it will come. I know that more good things will come in time,
and I don’t have to rush. I don’t have to hustle myself to death to get there, because I’m already there and the rest is chill. And this might change because – say I stop posting
and everything starts going downwards and then I’ll start getting panicky like, “Oh my god, I need to do something with my life again.” But that time will come when it comes. Not saying that I’m going to stop posting. I still like making videos
and I still love creating and everything. It’s just, there was this internal pressure
of making myself – “You gotta post on this daily calendar on social media.” And when you get started, you do have to do that,
let me tell you. When you get started,
you have to be consistent and doing it all. And my question is, I don’t know
if I want to do that forever, though. I feel like I’ve built it up to here, and now I’m trying to still have the business run without me putting as much effort into it. I’m trying to create more passive income, put my time towards focusing on the things
that make me happy, the things that I like to do, create for fun, and figure out how to keep it running without
stressing myself out. That is my goal. Because I think the ultimate goal of having
your own business is: You get to decide how to run your business
on your terms. And I’m not trying to be the #1 company
or brand in the world. I’m just trying to live a life that makes me happy, and that’s what success means to me. I know that people might have different views on this, and even sometimes I go back and forth between wanting to be a super achiever, super ambitious person, vs. a person that’s like, “I could just become quiet and just live a happy life without telling anybody about what I’m doing,
and I’ll be happy.” But there’s a balance there. I think that’s also why, this year,
I’ve made it a point to travel more, because I just want to experience life at
its fullest, rather than working so much. I guess I want to live out those other areas of my life, focus on my health, focus on my relationships, focus on feeling inspired in life. And my ideal life is – I just want to keep learning. I love the idea of not having to work and
just reading books all day, doing yoga all day, taking photos, making videos all day. And I know – photos and videos is my work,
but I genuinely have fun doing it. This is why I would not last in a regular corporate job. I just get lazy quick – not lazy – unmotivated, quick. If there’s something that I genuinely love to do,
I get excited about it. I work so many hours non-stop on something
that I genuinely love, but I genuinely have to love it. I’m not the type of person to sacrifice myself and do a good job at something I hate doing. So here’s me continuing to follow my heart and continuing to follow the things that bring me joy,
make me happy. I guess it’s pretty simple,
but I was just afraid to say it out loud because people would say, “You’re ungrateful. You have this YouTube channel that’s doing so well and yet you’re lazy about it.” It’s my life. It’s my channel. And I get to define success on my terms. I’ve said this quote in an older video, but I’ll say it again. Success at the speed of balance. I do care about achieving and being successful, but I want to do it at a pace that is not stressful at all. I want to do it at a pace that brings me joy. I want to be able to do all the other things in life
that I want to do. I want to be able to take a break if I want to
and not feel guilty about it. I want to be able to move at the pace that
makes me happy. That is something that I am still figuring out,
still working on. And I think the big part is learning not to feel guilty or learning not to feel less than other people, because if you look on social media
or the world as a whole, you will see people who are sprinting,
people going super fast, achieving so much, doing amazing things,
and I don’t know. Yes, they may be doing that, but maybe their love life or their family life or their health is suffering because of that. You never know the full story
and you never know the full picture. So I think, as I continue on, I’m trying to be
as balanced and holistic as possible, and always put my self care and my happiness first. Lastly: Does success change you? Does it change who you are? I just want to touch on that. Success makes you a more confident person, yes. At the heart of it, at the core of it, you’re still the same person that you used to be, but maybe your successful version of yourself
has overcome more obstacles. So you are a better version of yourself after
going through a lot of hustle, a lot of hard work and hardships,
and you’re more confident because of it. It does feel good to be where I am now,
because back then, I was like a mush. And now I’ve become a little stronger of a mush,
but I’m still soft. I’m still the same person as I was before. But I don’t let myself get stepped on by other people. The difference is: You are so much stronger
in your self love and your self worth, that it’s easier to say no to people. It’s easier to not feel bad, not be a people pleaser and not let others step on you or overshadow you. And another random things is that
people are a lot nicer to you if they see you as successful. This includes family members who used to
criticize you and hate on you. Same thing with peers who see what you’re doing. And people in general are nicer to you, maybe. I know it’s not fair. You should be nice to everyone equally, but people are nicer if they see you
as a successful person. On the other hand, even though I may seem outwardly successful to other people, and I am happy with where I am in life,
there are still challenges. Life is still tough. There are still things that I have not yet overcome: some fears, my sleeping schedule. I still woke up at like 2:00 PM today –
and hence, the sun is setting. I couldn’t get ready in time to film before the sun sets. But I still have my struggles, my personal struggles. And I’m still a regular person. I know it’s obvious, but I see so many people
judging celebrities or successful influencers or whatever, thinking that everything is perfect for them and they have no right or reason to complain
or be sad about their lives. But there are still struggles. I think my high school self would be really proud and really [snaps] at the fact that
I could wake up at 2:00 PM and still make money while I’m sleeping a lot. I still am proud of who I am
regardless of my weaknesses and those flaws that I have. And it’s just … life goes on. There’s still more to conquer,
there’s still more to learn, still more challenges to go through. I think I will leave it at that. I hope that you got something from this video. I know it’s quite messy. But I just want to encourage you
to define success on your terms. And whatever it is, make sure
you’re listening to your intuition and you’re following your heart. I know that we have the practical side
and the heart side, and you do have to find a balance between the two. And I’m positive, I’m confident that
you will be able to make it work. Don’t forget that this is your life and your life only. You get to decide what you want to do, so it’s best if you do something that brings you joy. Do something that you love. Create a life that you’re proud of. Create a life where you will have no regrets
looking back. Because I can say that about my life, that I’m proud of what I’ve done, everything I’ve created, I feel like the flaws are easier to deal with, and I’m not as hard on myself for them, because the important things are good. My foundation is good,
and nothing’s going to be perfect. So you just deal with it, be gentle with yourself,
take care of yourself. And always remember to love yourself first,
give love to others. On that note, I am signing off. I love you guys so much
and I’ll see you guys in the next one. Bye!

100 thoughts on “The Truth About “Success” πŸ†”

  1. A year ago, I can say that I do not think as how I think now. I randomly watched your vlog and by then, I subscribed. You really had an impact to my life; you positively help me on how things should be viewed. One thing I've really learned from you is that, it's a matter of mind set. It's a matter of how you look at your life. From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being an inspiration.

  2. This is the best, freshest, most honest video I've ever seen on YouTube! I love it. You are great! I want to be like you. ❀

  3. LOVING the honesty! It's rare you get successful people discussing these parts of their journey. It's super fascinating and insightful. Thank you so much! xx

  4. 1:28 min. in, and I'm already in tears. YOU have such an amazing way of of touching us with your mind & heart, but through the camera. Thank you so much for making videos like this bc it's different from anyone else out there and it's REAL. I love what you created and your brand LAVENDAIRE. You should be INCREDIBLY proud. πŸ’›πŸ’›πŸ’›

  5. I am almost done with my internship and glad to say that I’m not so busy rn and I have more time to binge watch on the videos that I’ve missed πŸ’•πŸ˜­πŸ˜. #Laviloves from Philippines πŸ‡΅πŸ‡­

  6. I thought I was alone in having the need to genuinely having to like something before I do it πŸ˜†. Someone can't make me do a task without me knowing the purpose of it or whether I am moved by it. EVEN IF IT IS THE MOST LOGICAL TASK TO DO

  7. Thank you so much for talking about this it came at such a good time for me. I really appreciate you being so honest and real. I've been a subscriber from the start and seeing your channel grow and all the hard work you've put in makes me so happy and proud of you. Such a beautiful soul you are inside out. Love you so much, thanks for always inspiring us!! πŸ’—

  8. Aileen, this is such a lovely video. a lot of young people out there are being disillusioned and sometimes this causes..isolation.,depression ..I think what is most important are things that are spiritual. .Of course material things are but the point of it is there is a satiating point..and the soul rather can grow endlessly..With meaning. ONE QUESTION AILEEN..DO YOU THINK YOU WOULD HAVE BEEN ABLE TO GROW AS YOU DID WITHOUT THE SHARING OF AUDIENCE IN YOUTUBE?..your thoughts are very valuable..YOU can be relaxed..This is what everyone with a consciousness wants..now you can continue exploring…everything will unfold naturally. I promise you..Sending much love.xx😊😊😊😍

  9. is this " the truth about success" or the truth about my success and my life and how i feel? i like your content but your title is misleading. i came here to hear something i could apply to my life but all i got is you talking about your own specific situation which does nothing for me. how many of us are youtubers here? very few i'd say. OFC you'd use your own story and experience to put this subject into perspective but not like this ! at least in my opinion. i dont watch your videos just to hear about what happened with you i watch them because they provide me something. You've achieved everything you wanted ! great ! so happy and proud of you but how can this help us do the same as well ? πŸ™‚

  10. as i observe at you sissy lavandeire, now i know why some people focus on few things and not the whole area of their life, but still happy and succesful

  11. Love how your definition of success somehow equates to a marathon rather than a sprint which often times causes burnout. Hearts from Malaysia πŸ‡²πŸ‡Ύβ€οΈ

  12. Do you mama!

    I’ve followed you for years now and you’ve hustled hard for this. You’re only job is to fulfill yourself and find peace in your life. Your mark has made even if you stopped now.

    Sending you all the good vibes!

  13. This heart to heart made me so happy! I'm trying to build my business and am in the hustle stage, and you sharing how content you are doesnt come off lazy to me, but inspirational – because that's exactly the place I'm trying to get to! It also reminded me to embrace the process – this hustle stage, the landmarks, the achievements, that magic is only going to happen once! Thanks for sharing!

  14. Congratulations lavindair..
    You motivate us please continue with your videos. We live our life by your way how u show that life is so easy.
    And to live life in productive way. #lavindair

  15. You always amazed me , with positive and motivating words . You can just help people like me who just initiated this journey ! Love you for all the things you just did to make others happy β€œ

  16. You should try chakra meditation to release all kind of fears , listen to teal swan please aileen πŸŒΈπŸŒΈπŸŒΈπŸŒΈπŸ™‹πŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ™‹πŸ»β€β™€οΈπŸ™‹πŸ»β€β™€οΈ true message from this side because we are more than this body , you can read anatomy of loneliness by teal swan , she is awesome person you can ever have in life , she guides very well 🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

  17. Once you will realise we are much more than this body and anything can happen to this body , you will become fearless .🌸🌸🌸 love you always 🌸🌸🌸 thanx for being honest my girl πŸŒΈπŸŒΈπŸŒΈβ€οΈπŸ‘πŸ»

  18. thank you for being honest and sharing that. we will always support you i wish you the bestπŸ’• love it as alwaysπŸ’™πŸ’™

  19. It’s crazy that people will try to put you down for feeling like this. I’ve been living like this for the last year and being around my family it’s crazy, they think I’m β€œ not doing anything β€œ because I’m not β€œ working β€œ. It’s a horrible feeling because I’m trying to get them to understand I’m actually happy! Detached from social media, anxiety is drastically cut down etc. that internal energy is what matters! β™₯️ Keep doing you shorty! πŸ’―πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ

  20. The truth in a nutshell was: you get to define what success means to you, the reality of diminishing returns with achievements, external validation is temporary and internal validation matters more (aka. self worth & self love)

    Make sure to check the description for more practical videos on success! 23 habits of highly successful people, habits that changed my life, etc. that’s all really helpful & applicable πŸ™‚

    I also wanted to re-share someone's definition of success in the comments: β€œSuccess is the absence of the anxious feeling that you’re not where you’re supposed to be. Success is when you look around and wouldn’t trade your life for anyone else’s." — love it

  21. Amazing video! Really resonated with me. One of your best Aileen! Keep up the great work of living life on your own terms! <3

  22. it is so nice when you see a person that, in fact, lives what he/she preaches. Examples change lives, words do not.
    When your actions are aligned with your thoughts and beliefs, it achieves a point that you do not have to preach anymore πŸ™‚
    I like your example. It inspires me.

    Hugs from Brazil

  23. Hi, Lavendaire, I am a relatively new to your site, but I have enjoyed and found values in what I have seen so far. I also found the Artist of Life Workbook very high quality. Sometimes, we feel empty and lost when we achieve the goal we have set. I found that I feel the happiest, when I working towards a goal. As we find excitement and exhilaration in learning and mastering new things, I think that your plan to travel more and focusing on new aspects in life will enliven you. As far as the frequencies of your posting, just think of it as an evolution of your life and maturity. As businesses pivot and change, you are allowed to pivot and change as well. Don't feel guilty about it. As long as you are providing values to others at whatever frequencies, we are all benefitted. Be peace with yourself on whatever decision you make based on your intuition. Thanks and love all you have done!

  24. Congratulations πŸŽ‰ you got 800 k you sound like someone I know ( Machelle Phan) very sweet voice ❀️❀️❀️

  25. I love your truthfulness and how you are down to earth in your videos. Your positivity is a breathe of fresh air thank you! I would love to see a video on how you selected your staff. Virtual and in office giving you more time to create relax.

  26. if not for yourself, do it for those who seek inspiration in you. I am one of them… i would love you to do it as much as you can..if it is possible for you. in no time people do disappear.. whatever you have built..don't let it go off for the sake of inner peace. chill and work.. there is no meaning if you stop working…i stopped working and now i am in much trouble.

  27. God bless you Lavendaire. May you enjoy the blessings you have now. Live life to the fullest with God. πŸ™‚ Jesus loves you Lavendaire. 😊

  28. I’m listening your podcast, i really love your voice- one of my favorite english voice 😍😍😍

  29. Thank u a lot Aileen, you did everything completely well. I really admire your effort on every single video and give your subcribers the most valuable and meaningful lessons. You have given me the exact definition of what success actually is, not the thing that parents want us to do and to achieve. Myself is the only one to know that success means to me. <3 Love uuuu

  30. This is so true! That’s why I keep on coming back to your channel Aileen. Hope I can apply your advice on my life.

  31. I definitely feel what you mean. "OK cool" its nothing about not being grateful . I think its just human nature . Once you really achieve what you wanted. Something really changes. After a while, its really nothing.

  32. Sweet Aileen β€οΈπŸ™ŒπŸ»
    You are such a bright light and I want to thank you for having had the courage to create a life that is fulfilling and abundant. πŸ™ŒπŸ»
    Thank you for inspiring me to finally take that big Leap and JUMP and LAUNCH πŸš€ my YouTube channel so I can also serve my mission on earth 🌍. πŸ˜³πŸ˜‰πŸ˜€

    I believe you are exactly where you need to be ❀️

  33. @Lavendaire girl it's okay to not post so much! The people who truly feel your energy and support you the most and really soak in what you're saying and giving to the world are the kind of people who want to see quality over quantity. I'd be delighted to see a single post per month from you that comes right from your soul in that moment of inspiration than 30 posts throughout the month that you painstakingly pulled out. Trust your gorgeous soul and heart, your intuition knows exactly what its doing, even when what it says makes no sense! <3 (I know you know that, but I know it helps to hear it too!) You're just amazing. Thank you for sharing so much with us. [email protected]

  34. Oh my goodness, I love this so much and how genuine and vulnerable you are. Thank you Aileen for constantly inspiring me with your content. Also congrats on 800,000 subscribers!!

  35. Heyaaa… I never write comments on youtube but I felt the need to reach out tonight,
    this is my message reaching out to you saying thanks for being you!Β 
    You have inspired me as I've always wanted to do youtube or a blog and have been way to scared even though I seem tough to a lot of people,Β 
    I've been not my self for at least 3 weeks now and this video has really helped me!Β 
    I notice I'm happiest when I createΒ 
    I did some painting and room redecorating and I felt alive again,
    my advice if your struggling is to write a list no matter how silly of everything you've ever thought was cool to do or enjoy in any way and incorporate some of those things into your videos so you get excited again,Β 
    pushing your self trying new things is sometimes the best way… anyways just wanted to say YOU ARE AMAZING and keep doing YOU!
    Thanks for keeping it real! Beth x

  36. Hindi and Tamil subtitles are available! Click "CC" and check the video settings. Thank you to the contributors listed in the description πŸ’•

  37. I always want to be financial stable growing up money was always the issue in my family since my family is belowpoverty. One day I hope to be financial stable not living paycheck to paycheck and have money saved for raining days. I feel happy just living my life what is meaningful to me!

  38. I would really love to hear how you transition to creating more passive income and still have the business on your terms! This would be the dream!

  39. You're so humble and inspirational!!! I love you and I am so happy for you !!!! Forever a fan!! My biggest goal is to become a Youtuber/influencer and you are an amazing example for me!!

  40. Aileen, don't stop because you feel "ok and comfortable" explore new fields that you could do. I really admire your works. Don't settle.. l know that I or no one have to tell you this, but since you said that in the begining of the video I felt like I should tell

  41. There was a great thing Jameela Jamil said a while ago when she said: "how much is enough?" Like these billionaires, who keep making more and more money. How much money is enough money? When does it stop?
    I think the same applies here. How many followers is enough followers? enough views? enough likes?

    I definitely think you should do what your heart is telling you. Your channel will still be here, if you need a break from social media, then take it. You have enough followers, you might lose some, you have enough for that.
    Your channel is about following happiness and joy, etc, so I think it would be better for you to stay honest to that.

    Maybe work towards bigger things that come out less often – maybe some big video courses that come out once a month or something. I don't know.
    Live your life girl, you don't have to give it all to us.

  42. As I regard you as a friend, I want you good too, I think you may be mentally exhausted and need to breath some fresh air. Pray for you, hope you have sufficient unwind, be strengthened and come back with a better you ❀️. As a follower of your youtube channel. It does not matter if you laid back for a period of time and come back with an refreshing you and even close your channel and do anything it is enjoyable or meaningful (Love one another and Love yourself) πŸ™πŸ»

  43. This is the kind of video I need to watch everyday to remind myself that’s its okay… I feel like I’m failing in life and want to give up. But your words keep me going and I know that I’m not alone. Thank you

  44. Thank you for reminding me that the knowledge that I've affected people's lives in some way is the true reward for my hard work.

  45. Thank you so much for sharing! This video is so inspiring! I only have 14 subscribers right now, but I will get to where you are one day! πŸ’ͺ🏻 hahahah

  46. Wow this is not real talk, it's REAL talk. Saying what we're all thinking but don't know how to talk about it

  47. I love your videos so much. I do not know since when exactly, but I have been watching your video in order to get motivation and inspiration every morning.

  48. Oh I love this motivational speech because I totally feel identified with you, you are on the top of success and I can see your happiness through your videos. Please keep making this beautiful content.
    Hugs from Mexico. πŸ˜€

  49. 11:18–11:41 .. this is how i feel as well. I am currently working a job i hate and i want to take control of my life and live a more fulfilling life that i am happy about and proud of. Your videos have been helping me get through my days , i'm grateful. thanks from Jamaica

  50. Your ideal life is very the same like me. I want to learn all day. Just reading books, baking and do the things that i want to do. I really hope my life will be that way 😭

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